Conception

"Start Blogging"-Daunting words. This is my first endeavour into the blogging world. But, after years of much resistance and a rather nostalgic attachment to my old hardback notebooks I figured it was time. I spent most of my waking hours on the laptop regardless, it's only rational I attempt to multitask.
Dare I say it but the truth is I have very little experience with the world of blogging. If this were a paper for submission right about here would be where I would set out my aims and goals and the methods by which I am going to go about proving them. Structure, order and rationale. If this were my personal journal this would be an entry of wreckless emotional abandonment, punctuation and spelling out the window. Chaos, frivolous and nonsensical. Paper, diary, the two being opposite extremes from my viewpoint but equally definable. For all their differences the two have their place in my eyes.
A blog? What is this supposed to be? Something in between. How do I define it? Can I? Should I? The only blog I ever followed was one about Bento boxes. A mother would construct these delightfully artistic creations for her children's lunches every day and send them off with Spongebob esq rice and veg treats in hand. All very admirable but the whole process always struck my as terribly time consuming, and then to BLOG about it. Avec images no less. Surely this woman had to have been some timelord, bending the laws of physics to suit her daily routine of Bento boxes, children, husband, blogging, housework, career, living. But I digress.
I find that the lack of rules both alarming and liberating. My mind finds itself in this place somewhere between blogger's block and creative overload. So many things to say and write about. Some incredibly trivial and pointless others gut wrenching, core shaking, colossal. All acceptable. All welcome. Where do I begin? First impressions and all. Is what I write today going to set the tone for posts to follow? It's almost akin to those 10 minutes spent outside an interview room. Everyone is just on the other side of that door and your mind is filled with anxiety and self doubt. Questions of whether you'll be liked and even if you are will you be good enough?

"Don't take it so serious or personal", a friend said. "Have you read some of the tripe that's blogged your tripe can't be any worse."

True, but we all like to make an entrance don't we?
I had wanted to write something profound or something hilariously funny or something exceedingly thought provoking. Perhaps inspire someone on what to serve for supper. Even something that's content might draw the masses to express their utter disagreement and disdain.
But today, I find today is not the day to change the world with religious notions or political opinions. I don't even feel the need to enhance someone culinary world with my foolproof recipe for the perfect Victorian Sponge. No no today I think I'll just see where this blogging takes me. I've created it and it's out in the world now. I've made a start with this post and hopefully it will be the first of many.

Signing Out.